I want to be an amazing chemist/ scientist.

Don't we all? Even those who abhor Chemistry...If you're in CBC, there is a tiny bit in you who wants to be amazing, famous and good at what you're studying.

I wonder if the Nobel Prize winners enjoyed doing their laboratory reports. I wonder if they really liked what they were studying. Was everything a breeze for them?

I do enjoy Chemistry. But I feel there is so little of it I understand. There is so so much yet to be discovered about the universe. And so much I've yet to learn.

Maybe my passion for Chemistry would be re-ignited if I was studying alone. I can study at my own pace. Learn because I want to. Study because I enjoy doing so. Not study because if I don't I will fall behind in this rat race. Chasing for one stupid paper that says Second Upper/lower.

And be mediocre for my entire life.

Humans are disgustingly hard to satisfy isn't it?

I want to live in a small town selling children books.
And yes, that's silly.
But getting a degree doesn't guarantee you a happy life anyway.
You enter the corporate world and see an uglier side of the world.
At least children don't judge. Children don't scheme. Children don't bitch.
They have much love to give.