If someone can bitch about a person to you. You can be darn sure he/ she can bitch about you to another.

There's this single friend in my university life whom I do not trust.
Yet I have to work with.

He/ She, on countless occasions, has bitched about different people to me.
People whom I've seen him/her interact from far.
Seen him/ her act as though they were the best of friends.

Sometimes, I know how to deal with difficult people. But for people who go behind-the-scenes and talk bad about me. Weave their own perceptions and poison the minds of others...I'm clueless.

I want to stay far far away from him/ her yet I know I have to work with him/ her.
It's like a chess game with him/ her. Make calculated moves.
Know what to say. What not to.

Here's a helpful link: http://www.wikihow.com/Deal-With-Poisonous-Friends

It's so hard to trust someone in university. Everyone seems to have their own agenda.

I have a tendency to tell too much to someone. Only to realize that person told his/ her friends.

Everyone is so critical of one another. Pin-point your tiniest faults. When you were in primary/ secondary school, you just had to be yourself.

No one would say "Hey, are you exploiting me?" when you're asking for a simple favour which you would gladly return. (Seriously, I'm only asking for 1 of your risk hazards for lab...)

Or say "You're a sly fox/ you're a bad woman." over a game. Even in jest, which friend says that?

I mean, you get hurt by what's said and done but I guess you just shrug and think, they're most probably not here to stay anyway.

I eat hearts.

Yesterday night I just ate one.
While previously I would hide in one corner to nibble on it then take slow juicy bites, this time, I just gobbled it down and stamped on the rest of the all-too-chewy parts.


Now let me go back to my hobby, heart-hunting.


It's never a 50:50 chance guys.
The girl already has on her mind the ratio.
You just have to figure it out the ratio and stop confession from spewing out when the ratio is not in your favour.

And there is no pleasant way to refuse. Under all that chocolate coating and chocolate rice and full cream and fruits, a pile of dung awaits you.

Admiration for Chemistry = k(Grades for Chemistry modules)

I feel like I'm disliking Chemistry more. Especially CBC214. It's like a jigsaw puzzle I can't fix. I understand each piece but I just can't fix them together. Equations after equations shoved down my throat.

Another hill to conquer for lab module this semester. Unknown machines. This time, I'm not given dealing with compounds. It's machines!!

WAI am I doing Chemistry? The answers for questions are definite, no room for argument.

Dropping GPA that I'm trying to save. One more semester of horrible GPA and I'm screwed for life.

Luckily I'm taking HL814! Which I simply adore. Although the essays scare me, I enjoy the lectures immensely! I don't dread it at all! (Even though it ends at 730pm.)

I'm going to end my whining session and curl myself in bed now.